All meat salad

What I want to know is why do people INSIST on putting meat in salad it like defeats the whole purpose!!!!
I consider myself a semi-vegetarian (for reasons I'll explain later see bottom of this blog) and this is just wrong to me. when I go to the store for a one person pre-made salad all I see is chicken, ham, and yes I have seen LAMB salad!!!! All I want is a freaking normal salad with NO meat!!! Is that so much to ask for?!?

Freaky

So I haven't posted in a few days cause well my mind has been bloggless, but something weird happened today. I fainted! It was so weird I like couldn't see for a minute and then I just fell it was very scary and I don't know what caused it.

PROBLEMS OF AN INSOMNIAC

I wrote this a few days ago in my notebook of many wonders because I didn't feel like getting online. Then I forgot about it...And then I found it! So here it is :)

 They should have good T.V shows on late at night instead of all this crap. T.V shows would get higher ratings. Cause I for one have been up very very very very late. I need help falling asleep so I turn on the T.V. YET NOTHING IS ON!!!!! someone please stop this madness!!

LNI #2

So I didn't post this last night but I was so bored I just wrote what I was thinking, which includes a new poem.

 Restless Silence
6/17/10 2:32am

So here I am
Up all hours of the night
Simply listening to my mind.
When you sit in silence
The silence isn't so peaceful
Not when you have a mid like mine 

Listening to: Hello Goodbye

2:40am 
ME:  HeadOn sounds like Hard on 
coco: Random 
ME: Hardon apply directly to the mouth
COCO: Kaila only you would think of that!

2:55am

I want to compose a symphony with the noises my phone makes when I text!

2:57am  

Remote controls are handy

2:57 and a half

Remote controls makes us lazy fat people!

2:59am

My room is messy...I shall clean it!!

3:02am

All done! Okay I lied I still need to vacuum but I don't want to wake up my grandma!

3:03am

The Contents Of My Trash         

• paper
• more paper
• a half eaten cheese bagel
• Easter grass
• empty vitamin water bottle
• dead flower
• marshmallow bunny on a stick 

3:04am

Yes I do realize Easter was like forever ago

3:05am

That curtain would make a pretty dress

3:06am

I need to do laundry

3:06 and a half am

I would go do laundry but I'd have to go outside and I don't want to see ant cockroaches

3:07am

Last year I saw a cockroach and had a panic attack.

3:08am

I always get freaked out at night when the house creaks...why doesn't the house creak during the day?

3:10am

I found an eraser to a mechanical pencil but no pencil to go with it...It's like finding a head with no body...

              3:11am

CD change time!

 Listening to: The B52's

3:13am

Now that I was thinking of cockroaches I feel like they are crawling on me...creepy...  


 

 
 

Missing The Good Old Days

So last November I went to Hawaii  with my best friend Coco's family. It was so much fun. I've been thinking of the last time I truly had fun with my friends and I immediately thought of our time in Hawaii. I wish I was back home in Oregon with my best friend so we can share many more adventures :(
Anyways here are some pics from Hawaii.

Even More Poems

The Brighter Light
date Unknown 
It's so dark
and oh so cold.
But when I believe
I see that bit of light.
My heart starts to warm
and the more I get to know you,
The brighter the candle burns...
and the warmer my heart gets.
For I love you my father in heaven.
You make me smile
like no one else can.
And you hold me tight
so that I know I'm protected.
I just want to say thanks,
for being here,
for crating me,
and helping me me become
who I am today.

The Future For Me And You
Date Unknown

When I look in your eyes
I stop breathing.
And when you give me that crooked smile,
My heart beats fast.
We barley know each other,
but I feel something there.
Something between us
that can turn out wonderful.
Maybe in the future,
we can see what this means
but for now
we can learn about each other.
And not worry about
The future.


Go
Date unknown


Go, move on.
Run! Run!
Keep going.
You can make it.
You can hide.
Or can you?
No!
You can't run from problems.
You can't run from pain.
But you can lift it to God.
He'll take them away
Cause all you need is him.
And nothing else.



  
 
 




 

Old Poems

Here are some really old poems from like 8th grade and my freshman year. Enjoy! :)

A Change in My Life
date unknown

Things are going to be different.
Things are going to change.
I'm going to live my life for God
And today is the day.

Teach me to be more like you.
Teach me to grow up right.
I want to be different
And I want to be the change.

I just want you God,
And only you .
To help me live my life,
As I should.

 Another Slap Another Bruise
Date Unknown

Slap across the face.
And you've done nothing wrong.
Another black eye
To start the week with.
 You go on like nothing happened
You don't tell a soul.
Your report card comes in.
When he sees it he yells.
He pushes you around
Slams you against the wall.
You cry "I'm sorry!!" 
But it doesn't matter.
He hits you once more,
And you fall to the floor.
The next day you're in the hospital.
Friends come to see you.
You don't tell what really happened.
But what you didn't know,
Is that the girl next door saw it all.
And she prays for you at night,
For you to be okay.


The Blade
Date Unknown 

They are one.
The blade and him.
When he puts it to his wrist.
He pushes down,
It cuts deep.
But not as deep
As his other pain.
The pain of rejection.
The pain of depression.
His body starts to tingle.
And he gets a rush.
He starts to cry.
But not from the pain of the blade,
From the pain of his sorrows.
He stops the bleeding.
Puts the blade away.
He knows this  is wrong.
Yet he does it again.
And the cycle continues.
Until he finds a gun,
Puts it to his head
So they are one. 

Braking Through Coming Out
date unknown 

Braking through my chains of distress.  
Through my sorrow and hopelessness.
I'm breaking through and becoming free.  
Free from sadness and free from pain.
Free from everything within.
 I am breaking through, I am coming out.
And I'm coming for you
For you are the reason for all my misery.
F or this broken heart of mine,
That's slowly mending,taking it's time.  
These chains are no longer for me.
Neither are these weights or these bags on my shoulders.
  

 
 
  

Human Civilization = Not So Civilized

Have you ever realized how demented  human kind is? Can it be that human civilization isn't so civilized after all? For example, many people get a kick out of tragedy movies where everyone dies or something bad happens to the people. Tons of teenagers love scary, bloody, gory movies...getting a kick out of death. I know a few people my age (as well as myself) who have their childhood stuffed animals still but have hung them with twine or ripped their heads off. Although many people may deny it, everyone has some kind of fascination with morbid things. I know I do. What gets my giggles on this topic is when someones dies and everyone trys to look on the bright side. Saying "well they are in a better place now." Don't get me wrong, I am a strong Christan and I do believe that they went to a better place but it's like HELLO!! I'M TRYING TO BE SAD HERE!! So as a message to man kind and myself: We all need to get a grip on our morbid ways!

More Poems

Don't Lock The Door
9/13/08

Why ababdon him Instead of fallow?
Leave him your creator, Just to be something you're not.
 Why not listen to his words?
Instead off shutting him out of your heart.
No matter how many locks you have on the door
he's still there
but evil is trying to make its way in.
Don't shut the door on God,
But lock out the evil.
He is speaking...open your ming and your heart

Downhill from here

Have I told you guys I'm depressed? like litteraly. well I havnt been diagnosed by a real doctor but I show all the signs. I have to make a Dr. appointment soon to get helped. It takes a lot of courage for me to say this expecially mainly to people I don't even know. The past few days have been good but today things kinda went downhill. As if I don't have enough problems myself but for some reason m whole family likes to vent all their problems to me. I just sit there and think "Wow way to make my life more of a living hell. Gee thanks!"

NOSE RING = NO DIPLOMA

At last! I have found something interesting to write about today! So there I was watching the ten O'clock news with my grandma when an interesting topic came on. A school in Ohio is refusing to give a girl her diploma because...get this...SHE HAS A NOSE RING! GASP!!! I mean come on! So what!!! I have my lip and belly button pierced and my hair is partially blue!!!!! try to not give me my diploma! i dare you! Its a good thing I don't live in Ohio!

TMWYT #2

Ive been thinking all day of something I can post today and came up with zip so TMWYT what would you like me to write about?

Wannabe

What's with this term "wannabe"? I don't get it when someone calls another person a wannabe because everyone is a wannabe. The term "wannabe" comes from want to be. We all want to be something or someone. We have all envied another person. It's hypocritical to call someone a wannabe! Think about t...it makes sense! IM A WANNABE AND PROUD OF IT! I WANT TO BE ME!

The Evil People Called Dentists

I have a curse of never ending mouth pain. I recently went to the dentist and the worked on four teeth but after I went to the dentist this one tooth hurts really bad all the time. ( I have this theory that dentists implant cavities in my mouth so i keep having to come back...kinda like putting coke in cola) and cuz they were working on my teeth so long I got a cold sore! Then a few days later I chipped one of my back teeth eating a peppermint candy (Ironic cuz peppermint is supposed to make your mouth smell better but really they just end up hurting you!) Then a few weeks later I got canker sores in my mouth. now half my mouth is numb from the medicine!

Yawn

I feel like crap. Stayed up late again. woke up at 2 again. I just want to sleep forever literally sleep.

PUZZLE

Me and my boyfriend of 5 1/2 months just broke up. I feel like poop. Im glad we can still be best friends for real. I just need to get my life put together. My life is a puzzle. I hate puzzles. I always put the wrong pice in the wrong spot,

Biological Family

So I have a pretty crazy family. My mom isnt normal.....but in a good way. My 7 year old bro has ODD wich is like a behavirol disorder and my 5 year old brother is autistic. I  also have an 18 year old brother and a 4 year old sister. But I just wanted to share with you guys some family pics...I dont have very many.

My little sister IzzyBee

Izzy again

Seth (7)

Our dog Nanqu when he was a puppy

Izzy when she was like one or so

My mom

Me and seth

Me and David (5)

David

Izzy

Seth

TMWYT #1

Okay I know Ive been thinking of not wearing makeup and stuff and Ive stuck with it...until today. I put on makeup and got ready out of pure bordem and percrastination. Ive been trying to clean my room but ADD has been gettin ahold of me. Now im mad at myself. Im not even going anywhere today! TMWYT FOR BOYS: should girls wear makeup yes or no? why? TMWYT FOR GRLZ:  do you wear makeup even when your not going out? why do YOU  wear makeup? I wanna know :)

FRIENDS

Me, Coco, and Tiffy in Hawwai

All my friends from West High
(Left to right)
Bottom row: Sara
2nd row: Kenny, Thomas, Josh, Eric, Lisa, J.J., Taylor, Me, Santana
Top row: Tara, Anthony, Kirstyn, some guy I dont know, Francine, and Girl Jordon

This was like in 8TH grade...I look way differant but its Skyla, me, and Coco

My sleepingness

Wow I stayed up till 5am last night. i havnt done that for years. latly ive had the wierdest sleeping patterns for weeks ill go to bed at 9 or 10 then BAM! i stay up till 5 and sleep in till 2pm.  I have the wirdest sleeping habits! what kind of habbits or patterns do you have in your life? tell me your NESS. (For instance my ness in this topic is saying up randomly one night for no reason.)

LNI #1

LATE NIGHT INSANITY

4:00am...this is the lasest ive stayed up in a long while. I dont know why but latly its been hard for me to sleep. So here I am blogging about nothing, listeing to music and playing facbook games. Oh yea I'm addiced to facebook apps i have like 20 its crazy...but i think i mentioned that before...wll no harm done in tellin you a second time. I am so bored i dont know what to do with myself. i think monday ill walk to the library so i dont rot my mind on the compuer.

  heres a pic for no reason. Its of me and my bestie on halloween i was a princess and she was a fairy princess

Journalism Class

My favorite class this year was journalism I had a great time with Brandon, John, Mrs. Schilly, and Taylor...I'm gonna miss them!!!!!

GMQ: Juno Edtion

GREATEST MOVIE QUOTE FROM JUNO

• "And I'm gonna punch that Bleaker kid in the weenier the next time I see him."  - Juno's Dad
• Paulie: "I still have your underwear" Juno: "I still have your virginity"
• "I just like being a piece of furniture in your wired life" Juno
• Juno" either I just peed my pants or..."   Dad: "Or?!!!" Juno: "THUNDER CATS ARE GO!!!"
• "The best thing you can do is find someone who loves you for exactly who you are" - Juno's dad
• Juno: "cuz you're the coolest person Ive ever met and you don't even have to try" Paulie"I try really hard"
• "As far as boyfriends go Paulie Bleaker is boss" -Juno
• "He is the cheese to my macaroni "- Juno
• "I guess normalcy isn't our thing"

Rambling: Theater

Ever scince the 7th grade I have had a passion for theater. Ive done tons of stuff with my church and ive been in drama classes all throughout high school. But so far I have only been in one school production "Our Town" last fall. (ive also tried out for two musicals but didnt make the cut) But im going into my senior year and i feel like im starting at the botom. When i get out of collage i want to become a drama teacher. Its like i feel it in my heart that its what i love. But yet i feel kind of useless with the whole thing. I dont know wwhat my problem is but i seem kinda upset about it. like i failed but i know i can still make up for time lost.

STAIN ALRET!!!!!!!!!

ok so does anyone know how to get paint stains out of carpet...i was painting in my room and made a little mess!!! plz anyone? i need to make it disappear before my grandma sees it....she wouldnt be mad but still...HELP

HeLl YeA oR hElL nO?!? Lady GaGa: Telephone

Okay so I was looking up the music video to a new song I liked, Telephone by Lady GaGa when i actually saw the video I  was disappointed. I know Lady Gaga can get pretty crazy sometimes but I did not like his music viedo what-so-ever!!!! It was as if they made the video to advertise products!!! they distinctively showed three product as if they were advertise them (virgin mobile, plenty of fish and miracle whip) I was outraged!!! I'm trying to watch this and your trying to get me to buy your product!!! can you say brainwashing?!? In my opinion this is a Hell No...whats yours?

A little bit of me

Good Morining fellow bloggers!!!!  Its day two of my blogging adventure.  I know this may not be interesting enough for some of you but I dont care this blogg is for me :) So as i was thinking about my blog this morninng I realized that you readers dont know a lot about me so I found this servey at 
http://www.myspacebulletins.com/ so if you wanna get to know me read this and enjoy :)

Whats your Dads name?          Raymond

Whats your Moms name?         Jeniffer

What is your name?                   Kaila (some spell it Kayla but i dont)

Where were you born?              Bakersfield California

What location?                          Mercy Southwest Hospitol

At what time?                           4:00am

What was the date?                   10/20/92

What were your measurements?    youll have to ask my mom that one!!

Any complications?                    none at all!!I was the only child who came out normaly! 

Do you have any siblings?             Yes sir I do!!!! And a lot of them! I have 3 boilogical brothers (18, 7, 5) One biological sister (4) Three step brothers one from my moms ex hubby (9) and two from her new hubby (13 and 9 I think) And two adopted sisters (18 and 16)

What was your first word?       juice...big whoopee...not!!

What was your favorite toy?     My 200 Barbies and 1 Ken

Did you eye color change as you grew older?    yes  my eyes were blue till i was about 9 now they very from differant shades of green

The Day-Care Days...

Where did you go to daycare at?    The daycare my mom owned (she had to shut it down cuz i kept biting everyone!!)

Who were your first friends?    probably the kids i grew up with, Marshall,Ashley, Ally, Skylar and Alex 

Did you ever get yelled at?   Oh yea!!!! I was a wild child!

What was your favorite kiddie food?     I don't remember I was very picky though

Were you a mommys or daddys kid?     I'm a mommas girl :

Elementary school...

Who were your first best friends?   Melissa and T.J but we stopped being friends in 3rd grade for unknown reasons

What did you excell in?       Reading Ive always been a very fast reader!

What did you plain out suck in doing?     Turning in my homework! 

Were you the teachers pet?             No way Jose!!!

Any specific memories of those early days?   I remember this game we did in 4th grade where we dug for gold in the playground and got prizes for it.

Did you have a favorite lunch?   mashed potatoes gravy and turkey bowl yum yum

Whole or chocolate milk?        chocolate all the way man!

Who ended up continually being your best friend?  well no one I ended up moving a lot until middle school where i met my current bestie

Did you eventually excell in different subjects?      I guess so

Did you still suck at those earlier mentioned subjects?  Not as badly but yes

Did you take art projects home for you Mom?  But of ccourse

Ever have a secret admirer on Valentines Day?     sadly no :(

What did you usually do during recess?       That I do not remember!

Did you ever fail, or be held back a year?  Yes in 5th grade :(

Ever have a kiddie boy/girl friend?  Oncce or twice I remember a boy kissing me during church one time in fourth grade.

Did you play truth or dare?       yupp we would dare each other to kiss so and so on the cheek

Did you ever play spin the bottle?  No I was a shy child.

Who was your 1st kiss?    I didnt have a ffirst kiss till I was a  freshmen

What was your nickname?  Kaykay

Did you have enemies?    Nope  I try not to

Here comes high school...

Where did you attend high school?  well freshmen year i went to Roseburg high and switched to S. Umpqua then sophomore year i went to west then junior year i went back to Roseburg then back to West and senior year im hoping to go back to Roseburg 

Who were your continual best friends?    Courtney, Janikka, Skyla,and Taylor

Did you have a new favorite lunch?  yes Roseburg Highs veggie pizza yum yum

What teacher did you hate?  Mr. Blazer from algebra at west...ugh scary

What teacher was pretty cool?       Mr. Allen my drama teacher :)

Ever cry yourself out of trouble?     nope!!!

Were you ever picked on?                  Once in 7th grade  but hey i'm over it

Did you buy or bring your lunch?            buy bringing it was considered lame.

Did you have any restaurants in your cafeteria?     well we have certain areas for certian foods oh and you can buy little ceasers pizza it was awsome

Was ever a parent-teacher meeting assigned?  Nope I was a good kid

Did you fail any classes?                  A few times but I'm paying for that now :(

Did you graduate from high school? Or currently attending? I ill be most likely graduating from Roseburg High...I hope

What high school stereotype were you?  I don't have one I was just me.

Who was your first girl/boy friend?    My 1st Boyfriend was Matt in 8th grade...what an interesting relationship

Did you ever go to dances, formals, proms? Yea I didnt get a chance to go to prom this year...too expensive.

Who was part of your crew?  we were called table 9 and it was Me, Courtney, Janikka, Braden, Tanner, Grace, Theron, and sometimes Skyla 

Do you smoke?          No way I don't wanna get cancer!!!!1

Do you get high? A few times but I don't do that crap anymore

Ever get drunk?      see last question answer

What was your first drink of alcohol?     vodka..icky

so yeaa thats little tid bits of my life!