As many of you have seen before, many of my peers have these bracelets (Left) which say I love boobies (Keep a breast.) The logo is also used on skateboards, t shirts, bags, etc. These items are helping support breast cancer and spreading awareness. So if these bracelets are HELPING the world...why are schools banning them?? Today at school I was talking to one of my friends and found out that the dean took away his bracelet because it was "inappropriate" but how is loving something on your body inappropriate?? Both of my grandmas have had breast cancer and I want to do all I can to support them, although until today I have never had one of these bracelets. Hearing the news of our school banning these bracelets I automatically began my rampage. I barrowed a bracelet from a friend and am now waiting for someone to try and take it away. If I do have a teacher/ school staff member try to take it away I will refuse. I have already warned my mom and she knows I may be getting in trouble for this and she is ready to raise hell. I say everyone keep on wearing your I heart boobies merchendise and raise your wrists high!! How can schools prevent us from supporting a cause that means so much???? Shoot this saying of "I heart boobies" has now even reached out to men which in my opinion is better then asking them to buy something pink! Saying you love something on your body is not inapproprite so keep on supporting breast caner. Oh and one more thing: I LOVE MY VAGINA (support ovarian cancer) and I LOVE BALLS (support ball cancer)
I hate Funerals. Well duh, normally people don't make it a habit to go to funerals. Anyways today I went to my great grandmas funeral (R.I.P) Pretty much I spent the whole time talking to people who I haven't seen since i was in diapers. They all crying and i just stood there like an idiot. Plus the whole time the sermon was going on I was looking are this fountain thinking "Man, I really want to jump in there and go swimming." I guess someone saw me starring and they gave me a funny look. At the end of this service I had some chick I didn't even talk to give me a hug. It was awkward cuz she was crying. I hate it when people cry. Some people cry all the time. I used to.....Now I guess I have no heart cause I never cry......hmmm.....anyways that was basically my funeral experience. Moral of the story: Careful when someone in your hippie family dies. You might have to jump in a fountain. At least zombies didn't pop out of their grave and kill me.
A few days ago in government class an interesting topic came into discussion. Flag burning: should it be illegal or not? Although I am from America I am not patriotic whatsoever. I find many things America does hypocritical and stupid. Like for instance everyday in school grades K through 12 have to do the pledge of allegiance but yet we frown upon Hitler for "Brainwashing" students by having them say "Hail Hitler" every morning. Its practically the same thing. Anyways in government we got into a bit of a debate over this flag topic. The class against me. Now most of the class said that it should be illegal because its disrespecting our country. I even had one girl tell me "If you don't like our country then leave." But my argument was that The 1st amendment is the freedom of speech and if they say we cant burn the flag in protest then its taking away our rights. Now this all blew over but a few days later a new topic came up. A church in Florida is discussing burning the Quran (Muslim bible) on 9/11 in protest. What I want to know is how can these people be so anal. It wasn't every person in Iraq who sent airplanes into the twin towers, it was a terrorist organization called Qaeda. How does this relate to flag burning? Well think about it. We get offended if our flag is burned and would be if the bible is burned, but then we go and burn something that means just as much to them? Once again America (of course not all Americans) is being hypocritical!!! Plus when you burn something religious like that your not only offending the Muslims in Iraq but there are Muslims here to!!! Now I believe this church has the right to burn what they please, if I didnt I'd be the hypocrite. But thse people should think before they burn. This is why I wish I lived in Canada...they never seem to have many problems with other countries!!
So school starts in 2 days and its my senior year. It feels like I should still be a freshmen ya know? Life goes by so fast and we dont even notice the little things. So its my goal this year to particapate in Everything possible :) I suggest you do the same
The first time I ever heard a Justin Bieber song I looked at my friends and said "Whoever this chick is she sucks!" True story. How can a 16 year old boy sound like that? My theroy is that his balls havent dropped yet. That or hes an alien sent from pluto (in my book its a planet) to destroy the whole world with his horrible repetitive music. Although I cant stand his music I often find myself singing along when it comes on the radio. This is where my consipricy theroy comes in. In my highly imaginary professional belife it seems to me that Justin Bieber music is brainwashing us all. Why else would 20 year old be falling for a 16 year old boy/girl????? Unless they are creepers that is. Why else would a HUGE anti-Bieber fan as myself happen to find themselves singing "And I was like Baby, baby, baby ooh Like baby, baby, baby noo " there is no other explanation. JUSTIN BIEBER IS AN ALEIN SENT FROM PLUTO TO BRAINWASH US!!!!!!!!!! So please donate. every dollar kills a Justin Bieber fan (A.K.A zombies) Thank you.
Okay so the day before yesterday I was on my bed with my little sister and I looked up and saw a little green cricket on my ceiling fan just chilling. I call my little brother to come in and catch it (Not kill) but by the time he got there the cricket disappeared. I ended up forgetting about it until last night when I went to go watch TV and there was an identical little green cricket sitting on the coffee table. Bugs freak me out for the most part so I forgot the idea of watching TV and so I entertained myself with Myspace thinking that in a matter of time the cricket would just go away. It didn't. I didn't want to kill it but I was to afraid to catch it. Eventually I got enough courage and caught it. I put a plastic container over it and scooted it over some paper. Then the little green cricket started jumping and it freaked me out. so I left it there for awhile. I came back a few minutes later and went to let it go outside. I set the paper and plastic container outside and went to nudge it so the container would fall over so the cricket could be free. Suddenly a cockroach came out of nowhere and freaked me out. So the container never got knocked over. It is still sitting in the middle of my back porch unmoved. I think I murdered that poor cricket.
Me making up my mind is always a disaster!!! Once I choose to do something different with my life things turn out fine in life life I already had, when its to late. Then I am torn. For me choosing whether or not to have a bagel for breakfast is like whether i should join Hitler or Stalin!
What I want to know is why do people INSIST on putting meat in salad it like defeats the whole purpose!!!!
I consider myself a semi-vegetarian (for reasons I'll explain later see bottom of this blog) and this is just wrong to me. when I go to the store for a one person pre-made salad all I see is chicken, ham, and yes I have seen LAMB salad!!!! All I want is a freaking normal salad with NO meat!!! Is that so much to ask for?!?
So I haven't posted in a few days cause well my mind has been bloggless, but something weird happened today. I fainted! It was so weird I like couldn't see for a minute and then I just fell it was very scary and I don't know what caused it.
I wrote this a few days ago in my notebook of many wonders because I didn't feel like getting online. Then I forgot about it...And then I found it! So here it is :)
They should have good T.V shows on late at night instead of all this crap. T.V shows would get higher ratings. Cause I for one have been up very very very very late. I need help falling asleep so I turn on the T.V. YET NOTHING IS ON!!!!! someone please stop this madness!!
So I didn't post this last night but I was so bored I just wrote what I was thinking, which includes a new poem.
Restless Silence 6/17/10 2:32am
So here I am Up all hours of the night Simply listening to my mind. When you sit in silence The silence isn't so peaceful Not when you have a mid like mine
Listening to: Hello Goodbye
2:40am ME: HeadOn sounds like Hard on coco: Random ME: Hardon apply directly to the mouth COCO: Kaila only you would think of that!
2:55am
I want to compose a symphony with the noises my phone makes when I text!
2:57am
Remote controls are handy
2:57 and a half
Remote controls makes us lazy fat people!
2:59am
My room is messy...I shall clean it!!
3:02am
All done! Okay I lied I still need to vacuum but I don't want to wake up my grandma!
3:03am
The Contents Of My Trash
paper
more paper
a half eaten cheese bagel
Easter grass
empty vitamin water bottle
dead flower
marshmallow bunny on a stick
3:04am
Yes I do realize Easter was like forever ago
3:05am
That curtain would make a pretty dress
3:06am
I need to do laundry
3:06 and a half am
I would go do laundry but I'd have to go outside and I don't want to see ant cockroaches
3:07am
Last year I saw a cockroach and had a panic attack.
3:08am
I always get freaked out at night when the house creaks...why doesn't the house creak during the day?
3:10am
I found an eraser to a mechanical pencil but no pencil to go with it...It's like finding a head with no body...
3:11am
CD change time!
Listening to: The B52's
3:13am
Now that I was thinking of cockroaches I feel like they are crawling on me...creepy...
So last November I went to Hawaii with my best friend Coco's family. It was so much fun. I've been thinking of the last time I truly had fun with my friends and I immediately thought of our time in Hawaii. I wish I was back home in Oregon with my best friend so we can share many more adventures :(
Anyways here are some pics from Hawaii.
The Brighter Light date Unknown It's so dark and oh so cold. But when I believe I see that bit of light. My heart starts to warm and the more I get to know you, The brighter the candle burns... and the warmer my heart gets. For I love you my father in heaven. You make me smile like no one else can. And you hold me tight so that I know I'm protected. I just want to say thanks, for being here, for crating me, and helping me me become who I am today. The Future For Me And You Date Unknown
When I look in your eyes I stop breathing. And when you give me that crooked smile, My heart beats fast. We barley know each other, but I feel something there. Something between us that can turn out wonderful. Maybe in the future, we can see what this means but for now we can learn about each other. And not worry about The future.
Go Date unknown
Go, move on. Run! Run! Keep going. You can make it. You can hide. Or can you? No! You can't run from problems. You can't run from pain. But you can lift it to God. He'll take them away Cause all you need is him. And nothing else.
Here are some really old poems from like 8th grade and my freshman year. Enjoy! :)
A Change in My Life date unknown
Things are going to be different. Things are going to change. I'm going to live my life for God And today is the day.
Teach me to be more like you. Teach me to grow up right. I want to be different And I want to be the change.
I just want you God, And only you .
To help me live my life,
As I should.
Another Slap Another Bruise Date Unknown
Slap across the face. And you've done nothing wrong. Another black eye To start the week with. You go on like nothing happened You don't tell a soul. Your report card comes in. When he sees it he yells. He pushes you around Slams you against the wall. You cry "I'm sorry!!" But it doesn't matter. He hits you once more, And you fall to the floor. The next day you're in the hospital. Friends come to see you. You don't tell what really happened. But what you didn't know, Is that the girl next door saw it all. And she prays for you at night, For you to be okay.
The Blade Date Unknown
They are one. The blade and him. When he puts it to his wrist. He pushes down, It cuts deep. But not as deep As his other pain. The pain of rejection. The pain of depression. His body starts to tingle. And he gets a rush. He starts to cry. But not from the pain of the blade, From the pain of his sorrows. He stops the bleeding. Puts the blade away. He knows this is wrong. Yet he does it again. And the cycle continues. Until he finds a gun, Puts it to his head So they are one. Braking Through Coming Out date unknown
Braking through my chains of distress. Through my sorrow and hopelessness. I'm breaking through and becoming free. Free from sadness and free from pain. Free from everything within. I am breaking through, I am coming out. And I'm coming for you For you are the reason for all my misery. F or this broken heart of mine, That's slowly mending,taking it's time. These chains are no longer for me. Neither are these weights or these bags on my shoulders.
Have you ever realized how demented human kind is? Can it be that human civilization isn't so civilized after all? For example, many people get a kick out of tragedy movies where everyone dies or something bad happens to the people. Tons of teenagers love scary, bloody, gory movies...getting a kick out of death. I know a few people my age (as well as myself) who have their childhood stuffed animals still but have hung them with twine or ripped their heads off. Although many people may deny it, everyone has some kind of fascination with morbid things. I know I do. What gets my giggles on this topic is when someones dies and everyone trys to look on the bright side. Saying "well they are in a better place now." Don't get me wrong, I am a strong Christan and I do believe that they went to a better place but it's like HELLO!! I'M TRYING TO BE SAD HERE!! So as a message to man kind and myself: We all need to get a grip on our morbid ways!
Why ababdon him Instead of fallow? Leave him your creator, Just to be something you're not.
Why not listen to his words?
Instead off shutting him out of your heart.
No matter how many locks you have on the door
he's still there
but evil is trying to make its way in.
Don't shut the door on God,
But lock out the evil.
He is speaking...open your ming and your heart
Have I told you guys I'm depressed? like litteraly. well I havnt been diagnosed by a real doctor but I show all the signs. I have to make a Dr. appointment soon to get helped. It takes a lot of courage for me to say this expecially mainly to people I don't even know. The past few days have been good but today things kinda went downhill. As if I don't have enough problems myself but for some reason m whole family likes to vent all their problems to me. I just sit there and think "Wow way to make my life more of a living hell. Gee thanks!"
At last! I have found something interesting to write about today! So there I was watching the ten O'clock news with my grandma when an interesting topic came on. A school in Ohio is refusing to give a girl her diploma because...get this...SHE HAS A NOSE RING! GASP!!! I mean come on! So what!!! I have my lip and belly button pierced and my hair is partially blue!!!!! try to not give me my diploma! i dare you! Its a good thing I don't live in Ohio!
What's with this term "wannabe"? I don't get it when someone calls another person a wannabe because everyone is a wannabe. The term "wannabe" comes from want to be. We all want to be something or someone. We have all envied another person. It's hypocritical to call someone a wannabe! Think about t...it makes sense! IM A WANNABE AND PROUD OF IT! I WANT TO BE ME!
I have a curse of never ending mouth pain. I recently went to the dentist and the worked on four teeth but after I went to the dentist this one tooth hurts really bad all the time. ( I have this theory that dentists implant cavities in my mouth so i keep having to come back...kinda like putting coke in cola) and cuz they were working on my teeth so long I got a cold sore! Then a few days later I chipped one of my back teeth eating a peppermint candy (Ironic cuz peppermint is supposed to make your mouth smell better but really they just end up hurting you!) Then a few weeks later I got canker sores in my mouth. now half my mouth is numb from the medicine!
Me and my boyfriend of 5 1/2 months just broke up. I feel like poop. Im glad we can still be best friends for real. I just need to get my life put together. My life is a puzzle. I hate puzzles. I always put the wrong pice in the wrong spot,
So I have a pretty crazy family. My mom isnt normal.....but in a good way. My 7 year old bro has ODD wich is like a behavirol disorder and my 5 year old brother is autistic. I also have an 18 year old brother and a 4 year old sister. But I just wanted to share with you guys some family pics...I dont have very many.
Okay I know Ive been thinking of not wearing makeup and stuff and Ive stuck with it...until today. I put on makeup and got ready out of pure bordem and percrastination. Ive been trying to clean my room but ADD has been gettin ahold of me. Now im mad at myself. Im not even going anywhere today! TMWYT FOR BOYS: should girls wear makeup yes or no? why? TMWYT FOR GRLZ: do you wear makeup even when your not going out? why do YOU wear makeup? I wanna know :)
All my friends from West High
(Left to right)
Bottom row: Sara
2nd row: Kenny, Thomas, Josh, Eric, Lisa, J.J., Taylor, Me, Santana
Top row: Tara, Anthony, Kirstyn, some guy I dont know, Francine, and Girl Jordon
This was like in 8TH grade...I look way differant but its Skyla, me, and Coco
Wow I stayed up till 5am last night. i havnt done that for years. latly ive had the wierdest sleeping patterns for weeks ill go to bed at 9 or 10 then BAM! i stay up till 5 and sleep in till 2pm. I have the wirdest sleeping habits! what kind of habbits or patterns do you have in your life? tell me your NESS. (For instance my ness in this topic is saying up randomly one night for no reason.)
4:00am...this is the lasest ive stayed up in a long while. I dont know why but latly its been hard for me to sleep. So here I am blogging about nothing, listeing to music and playing facbook games. Oh yea I'm addiced to facebook apps i have like 20 its crazy...but i think i mentioned that before...wll no harm done in tellin you a second time. I am so bored i dont know what to do with myself. i think monday ill walk to the library so i dont rot my mind on the compuer.
heres a pic for no reason. Its of me and my bestie on halloween i was a princess and she was a fairy princess
Ever scince the 7th grade I have had a passion for theater. Ive done tons of stuff with my church and ive been in drama classes all throughout high school. But so far I have only been in one school production "Our Town" last fall. (ive also tried out for two musicals but didnt make the cut) But im going into my senior year and i feel like im starting at the botom. When i get out of collage i want to become a drama teacher. Its like i feel it in my heart that its what i love. But yet i feel kind of useless with the whole thing. I dont know wwhat my problem is but i seem kinda upset about it. like i failed but i know i can still make up for time lost.
ok so does anyone know how to get paint stains out of carpet...i was painting in my room and made a little mess!!! plz anyone? i need to make it disappear before my grandma sees it....she wouldnt be mad but still...HELP
Okay so I was looking up the music video to a new song I liked, Telephone by Lady GaGa when i actually saw the video I was disappointed. I know Lady Gaga can get pretty crazy sometimes but I did not like his music viedo what-so-ever!!!! It was as if they made the video to advertise products!!! they distinctively showed three product as if they were advertise them (virgin mobile, plenty of fish and miracle whip) I was outraged!!! I'm trying to watch this and your trying to get me to buy your product!!! can you say brainwashing?!? In my opinion this is a Hell No...whats yours?
Good Morining fellow bloggers!!!! Its day two of my blogging adventure. I know this may not be interesting enough for some of you but I dont care this blogg is for me :) So as i was thinking about my blog this morninng I realized that you readers dont know a lot about me so I found this servey at http://www.myspacebulletins.com/ so if you wanna get to know me read this and enjoy :)
Raymond
Jeniffer
Kaila (some spell it Kayla but i dont)
Bakersfield California
Mercy Southwest Hospitol
4:00am
10/20/92
youll have to ask my mom that one!!
none at all!!I was the only child who came out normaly!
Yes sir I do!!!! And a lot of them! I have 3 boilogical brothers (18, 7, 5) One biological sister (4) Three step brothers one from my moms ex hubby (9) and two from her new hubby (13 and 9 I think) And two adopted sisters (18 and 16)
juice...big whoopee...not!!
My 200 Barbies and 1 Ken
yes my eyes were blue till i was about 9 now they very from differant shades of green
The Day-Care Days...
The daycare my mom owned (she had to shut it down cuz i kept biting everyone!!)
probably the kids i grew up with, Marshall,Ashley, Ally, Skylar and Alex
Oh yea!!!! I was a wild child!
I don't remember I was very picky though
I'm a mommas girl :
Elementary school...
Melissa and T.J but we stopped being friends in 3rd grade for unknown reasons
Reading Ive always been a very fast reader!
Turning in my homework!
No way Jose!!!
I remember this game we did in 4th grade where we dug for gold in the playground and got prizes for it.
mashed potatoes gravy and turkey bowl yum yum
chocolate all the way man!
well no one I ended up moving a lot until middle school where i met my current bestie
I guess so
Not as badly but yes
But of ccourse
sadly no :(
That I do not remember!
Yes in 5th grade :(
Oncce or twice I remember a boy kissing me during church one time in fourth grade.
yupp we would dare each other to kiss so and so on the cheek
No I was a shy child.
I didnt have a ffirst kiss till I was a freshmen
Kaykay
Nope I try not to
Here comes high school...
well freshmen year i went to Roseburg high and switched to S. Umpqua then sophomore year i went to west then junior year i went back to Roseburg then back to West and senior year im hoping to go back to Roseburg
Courtney, Janikka, Skyla,and Taylor
yes Roseburg Highs veggie pizza yum yum
Mr. Blazer from algebra at west...ugh scary
Mr. Allen my drama teacher :)
nope!!!
Once in 7th grade but hey i'm over it
buy bringing it was considered lame.
well we have certain areas for certian foods oh and you can buy little ceasers pizza it was awsome
Nope I was a good kid
A few times but I'm paying for that now :(
I ill be most likely graduating from Roseburg High...I hope
I don't have one I was just me.
My 1st Boyfriend was Matt in 8th grade...what an interesting relationship
Yea I didnt get a chance to go to prom this year...too expensive.
we were called table 9 and it was Me, Courtney, Janikka, Braden, Tanner, Grace, Theron, and sometimes Skyla
